"Perfection" 7

A broken and sad heart can come from anywhere, it can come from friends, family, marriage. Emotional pain can hurt so intensely that it seems impossible to overcome, it causes a fog, confusion, disorientation from reality v.s imagination. But then, in the midst of the pain something happens, something clicks, and you feel something unexplainable and then you simply begin to heal. When you heal and become whole again, you heal in a way that feels even more beautiful then before the pain occurred. You become a better you. If you fight and believe in happiness, then you will have the happiness. We feel that pain for a reason, we go through things for a reason, reasons we may not ever see or understand. We heal and we have a choice, to let that pain consume us and bring us to become someone we would never even recognize, or to allow the pain to become a positive influence on our lives. To allow it to make us invincible and strong, to realize what it is we truly deserve, to allow ourselves to enjoy and appreciate the tiniest things. If someone causes you pain, then distance needs to be made. If someone is making your heart ache rather then smile, then something is wrong and this is not okay. Being happy is simple, find what and who brings those butterflies to your stomach, who slaps a sappy smile on your face. What makes you happy? No matter how silly it is, do it. Do what makes you happy, don't think about money don't think about the consequences of every little thing. Take a leap of faith, let whatever hurt you in the past bring happiness to your future. Let your mistakes make you a stronger version of you. Trust that every detail of your life happens for a reason...trust this and the pain of loss wont sting so badly. Trust that every itty bitty occurrence is planned and that every occurrence and encounter has a purpose whether you see it or not. It's so beautiful and can bring so much peace into your heart once you trust in this plan, you don't need to know every step of your future to know that you'll be okay, just like you don't have to see the wind and air to know it exists, we simply trust and allow it to be what it is. Do this. If you feel love, and happiness embrace it, enjoy every single second, think about every piece of emotion that the love and happiness is allowing you to feel. It's such an amazing high. Learn to banish the negative energy from your past, holding onto any bad feeling is simply allowing the past to control your future. Forgive, even if an apology was never made.

 

For the past few days, I cant stop smiling. I can't stop appreciating every little thing in my life and every encounter that I feel so blessed to have made. I vow to remember this feeling and to embrace it despite what happens in my future, I want to remember what it feels like to feel so much inner peace and so much appreciation for every single aspect of my life. I am beyond blessed, because I choose to see it that way. Don't think of what you don't have, appreciate what is right in front of you. View everything in your life as some sort of blessing, choose to see things this way and you will feel the amazing and flawless happiness that I feel so incredibly grateful to be able to have felt lately.

"All I feel in my stomach is butterflies, the beautiful kind, making up for lost time taking flight, making me feel right."

From my butterflies to yours,

-Jill

The BEST Feeling in the World

I recently got home from my trip! I got to talking to a friend of mine about how one of the best feelings in the entire world is when you have been missed after being away. This feeling allows us to know we are loved and seriously warms the heart. The best thing to show you how missed you've been is your dog. You walk in the door and he/she just goes crazy! Licking your face, smiling, jumping around in circles, whimpering and following you around the rest of the night. This may seem like a silly post, and maybe it is...I don't know. Heck, I don't even know if anyone even reads this thing! You know why? Because people don't talk about things like this. People will not openly say that they read it, like it, don't like it...unless they're asked. What i'm getting at is that it is so very hard for people to be open and omit emotions, feelings, compliments, helpful or kind words. Why oh why can't we all think like dogs? haha they let us know we've been missed, when they're hungry, when they do and don't like something, when they need to be alone, when they just want a cuddle buddy...etc. People need to be more free...if you miss someone, TELL THEM! 

Above Photo: My favorite guy, Arthur.

Why not give them that wonderful feeling of "I'm so glad to know i'm loved to the point that someone is able to miss me."

Do you love someone? Tell them! Who cares about their reaction, who cares whether they say it back, who cares whether it's someone you haven't spoken to since you broke up, your last family reunion, a friend that has wronged you...etc. TELL THEM...speak, let them know you ACTUALLY care.

We DO NOT know what our fate holds, or anyone else's for that matter...you don't know when or if you will see someone again, tell them how you feel.

People think. They think think think think think think THINK so much. People never close their eyes, shut off their brain and FEEL. What is it your heart wants you to do? What is it your heart wants you to say or share. Your heart may feel hurt, feel defeated and broken...what is it telling YOU TO DO? Is it telling you to try and fix something? Is it telling you to say or do something? If it is, don't be afraid...you never know what the outcome may be, and that's the thing...YOU'LL NEVER EVER KNOW IF YOU DON'T DO IT. 

Is your heart so incredibly happy? Can you feel the positive energy racing through your hearts every beat? Why? Feel it...why do you feel this way? Is it because someone has done something kind? Is it because you feel something for someone? Is it because you're simply with a friend that makes you forget everything that needs to be forgotten? Tell them, tell them you appreciate and love them...tell them that they make you incredibly happy, exude onto them the positive energy that they have unknowingly pushed upon you, thank them for it.

Above Photo: A sign I saw during a trip a few months ago that hold a strong, truthful message.

Why is being kind so scary sometimes? Don't let it be...be kind, extend a helping hand, explain how you feel to someone that needs to hear it, love everyone even if they don't love you back, forgive (This one is tough sometimes.) You don't have to march up to someone and announce "I FORGIVE YOU!" no, you don't have to say anything...just allow your heart to forgive. 

Back to the dogs, dogs have an unconditional love, that when you wrong them or yell they forgive you always, they love you so much and let you know it daily. Don't ignore it...take it and do the same for the people around you.

You're more blessed than you see, you're more beautiful than you know and you're more loved than you can ever imagine.
  
From my heart to yours,

-Jilly-fishy-fish

Not a Punishment

Exercising your body is not a punishment, however it is just the opposite, it's a reward. To have the ability to move, and challenge your body in a way that only benefits it is a beautiful thing. When on vacation, why stray from a routine? Most go on trips and say "I'm on vacation, I'm going to relax and not do anything!" Why? On my trip I decided to continue challenging my body, I chose to still give it benefits and reward my soul with a new amazing view, or at least see everything in a different perspective and way.

Even if it's not a huge strenuous work out  still do SOMETHING! 

Here's the view from my run a long with my new FTYF shirt and happy accomplished face!

Love you, love your body, In whatever shape it may be!

-Jill